Honesty* Stewardship* Choice
So far this year has been pretty intense! I don’t know about you but I have been feeling the stress and the pressure to make things happen! For me it makes it hard to stay on a certain task. Energetically I am really sensitive too.
This month at YoniSpeak with Mellissa Seaman I was reminded why I have been feeling like this!
The Earth changes that we have all been talking about are happening now! There are layers of electromagnetic fields within in the Earth that are brand new. Humans are an organ of the Earth so we are also shifting and we have a choice how we want to handle these changes. We can hold them all in and try to resist and control them, or we can open and surrender to the flow of what is happening.
It was a Wake Up Call:
It just made me think about how I can apply this to my life. I have definitely been feeling it. This sense of urgency yet stuck in fear. Old fears and old triggers which old identities began to surface. Ones I thought I had overcome but here they are again. As hard as it is, I look at this time in my life to really dive in and listen to my own personal call for awakening. I ask myself what it is in my life that is holding me back? Who am I? What is my unique essence requesting of me?
In April until now, I received and have been integrating an initiation by Shakti MA, and the Kundalini Energy has been flowing through me. I guess I didn’t understand what this really meant. At first it was ecstatic, but as soon as I started to get lazy with my daily practice, she began to show me really ugly things about myself. And I began to get lethargic and want to shut in and shut down. Of course these were my own fears coming up. Fears about what am I doing here on this planet and why am I choosing this. It would be so much easier to just give up and go get that corporate job that can secure me a paycheck every month!
It almost made me want to give my healing practice up. Now don’t freak out… because I would never do that! I know better and I know that deep down this is the path that I am meant to walk on. But all it comes down to was I was holding back in fear of taking my own personal growth steps. And so I made the choice that I am not going to hold back at all anymore.
I can’t be perfect and all of the challenges that I am having are totally normal right now. Hell, I have been preaching about them to my clients and the people that come to the Sacred Wisdoms Workshops. Why wouldn’t I be affected as well? This fear that I was trying to hold in was seriously affecting my practice. Deep down I didn’t feel worthy of taking on clients while I was working through my own issues and so they stopped calling, and they cancelled their appointments. We even had to cancel a whole workshop because down to the last minute we had almost everyone drop out the day before an event.
At first it was upsetting and frustrating. But, the beautiful thing about it was that it made me WAKE UP!
It made me look at where I was out of integrity in the areas of my life that directly reflected that of my client. The world is our mirror and the people that we have any interactions with we can learn from. And the reflection that I needed to see was that I was out of integrity with myself. I was rejecting myself! I wasn’t accepting myself and the choices that I had made.
So I have made the choice that I am stepping into my most authentic self. For me that means going back to my daily practice of energetics, breath and movement. It means allowing my priestess to shine through in challenging moments with other people (like my family). And it means surrendering to this process or transformation. It is not easy, but it pays off in the long run. And since I have made that choice, I am back in alignment.
And these are also the clients that I am choosing to work with. Those that wish to make radical change in their lives. Those that are ready to break through for good! There is no time like that present moment to make things happen! And I can help you. I love my work and I am going to power through this with the intention that you are by my side.
So thank you! I made this video for you:









